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I stole this.   
05:27am 08/02/2009
  Is your best frien​d a virgi​n still​?​​
Maybe, maybe not. Haven't talked to him lately.


How'​​s your heart​ latel​y?​
Heh, swirling like a hurricane.


What would​ happe​n if you had a baby with the last perso​n you kisse​d?​
That'd be kinda kooky. But not ready for kids yet.


Are you shy?
Usually.

Are you sarca​stic?​
When someone's being dumb.


Who was the last perso​n you had a deep conve​rsati​on with?​​
Lisa.

Are you talka​tive?​​
When I want to be.


What are you doing​ tomor​row?​​
Work



Are you liste​ning to music​ right​ now?
Nope


Are you curre​ntly wanti​ng any pierc​ings or tatto​os?​
Yes.


Do you have any?
Tongue, ears and Fox tatt.



Do you swear​ in front​ of your paren​ts?​
Now I do.


Your enemy​ is at your doors​tep beggi​ng for forgi​venes​s,​​ what would​ you do?
Depends what they did.

What pisse​d you off yeste​rday?​​
The end of this:


What are you suppo​sed to be doing​ right​ now?
Sleeping.


Have you ever kisse​d anyon​e who'​​s name start​ed with a K?
No?

Edit: Oh shit, I forgot. Kim!

Does anyon​e hate you?
I'm sure someone out there does.

Are you happy​ with life right​ now?
For the most part.

Do you miss someo​ne?​​
Yes...

Is anyon​e jealo​us of you?
I doubt it.


Who was the last perso​n you were in a car with?​​
John & Mike


Does anyth​ing hurt on your body?​​
My head

Are you going​ anywh​ere for the next summe​r?​​
Vegas baby.


Are you waiti​ng for anyon​e to call right​ now?
No.


Have you ever regre​tted anyth​ing?​
All the time.

Do you miss how thing​s used to be?
Yeah.


Hones​tly,​​ is there​ someo​ne on your mind that shoul​dnt be?
I dunno. Don't think so.


Has someo​ne had their​ arms aroun​d you in the past 7 days?
Oh yes.


Do you like to hold or be held?​​
both....

When was the last time you cried​?​​
The past 2 nights...


Think​ of the last time you staye​d at someo​ne'​​s house​,​​ where​ is that?
My dad's?


Are you start​ing to reali​ze anyth​ing?​​
Kinda.


Last perso​n you saw other​ than your famil​y?
Laura.


Whats​ irrit​ating​ you right​ now?
Emotional stuff.


Have you done anyth​ing embar​rassi​ng latel​y?​​
Probably.


Do you know any peopl​e who are addic​ted to drugs​?​
Yep.



Could​ you ever be frien​ds with someo​ne who broke​ your heart​?​​
Depends.



Do you think​ age matte​rs in relat​ionsh​ips?​​
Kinda. It's a number, really.


Have you ever writt​en anyth​ing on a bathr​oom wall or door?​​
Hah, yeah.



Who have you texte​d​ the most this week?​​
Lisa.



Whats​ your favor​ite Car?
One that gets me to where I'm going.


Who is the perso​n you have learn​ed the most from?​​
Myself.

How long has it been since​ you said I love you to the oppos​ite sex?
A long time. 5 years.
 
     
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04:13am 08/02/2009
 




 
     
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06:45pm 11/01/2009
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I'm such a sucker for a love story.   
03:39am 04/01/2009
 
mood: sad
I just can't listen to any of the ending themes from Final Fantasy VIII-X without getting a little choked up/tears welling in my eyes.

I'm waiting for the day, that certain special someone will come sweeping out of the blue and save me from my darkness, and just hold me close and give me this feeling I've been longing for, for so long now.
 
     
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Bored.   
03:06am 27/12/2008
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11:56pm 12/11/2008
 
mood: depressed
I hate being so painfully, and utterly alone.
 
     
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10:43pm 11/11/2008
 
mood: bored
1. Put your Ipod on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Why Do You Want Him - Green Day

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Smack That - Akon w. Eminem

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
A Thousand Miles - Vanessa Carlton

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Crawling In The Dark - Hoobastank

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Bat Country - Avenged Sevenfold

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Siva - Smashing Pumpkins

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Man In The Box - Alice In Chains

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Breed - Nirvana

WHAT IS 2+2?
Technologic - Daft Punk

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Same Direction - Hoobastank

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
I'd Do Anything - Simple Plan

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Blaze of Glory - Bon Jovi

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Stellar - Incubus

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Warning - Incubus

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Possum Kingdom - Toadies

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
If You Could Only See - Tonic

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
No More Tears - Ozzy Osbourne

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
She Talks To Angels - Black Crowes

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
You're The Best - Karate Kid Soundtrack

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Famous Last Words - Zeromancer

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Hemmorage - Fuel

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Dancing Machine - Jackson 5

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Surprise! You're Dead! - Faith No More

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Lips Of An Angel - Hinder

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
I Dare You - Shinedown

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Drain You - Nirvana

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Anything For You - Evanescence

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Angry Again - Megadeth

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Hold My Hand - Hootie & The Blowfish

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
People=Shit - Slipknot
 
     
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11:40pm 13/10/2008
 

Your result for The Heart Test...

Slave to Emotions

You are 10% Independent, 80% Idealistic, 70% Intimate, and 80% Indulgent!


The Slave to Emotions

Dependent, Idealistic, Intimate, Indulgent


You are the most emotional of hearts, the Slave to Your Emotions. You crave love, and have high standards for love. You are very intimate and value harmony with a mate. Sometimes you may feel that you are over-emotional and see this as a curse at times, because you are so emotionally-charged, and you so greatly desire love. You might want to break the emotional chains that bind you, but find that the ideals of love and intimacy are firmly shackled to you and cannot be severed.


Matches for the Slave to Emotions:


The Bleeding Heart

The Bleeding Heart is idealistic and indulgent as you are, and just as love-needy, making for lots of shared common ground. You'll also find the Bleeding Heart to be more passionate and fun-loving, something that at first might turn you off, but you will find this will provide a perfect balance to your intimate nature.


The Heart of Gold

The Heart of Gold values harmony and unity just as you do, and shares your ideals of love and intimacy, but is more independent. The Heart of Gold will never leave you and always be there to love you, and this above all else you will appreciate. The Heart of Gold's loving nature will make you feel as if you have found someone to help carry your rattling emotional chains, and that they are glad to do it.


The Patron Saint's Heart

The Patron Saint's Heart craves love just as you do and value harmony and togetherness as well, but is more down-to-earth and passionate than you. However, you will value these more sensual qualities, and the Patron Saint's more protective and loving nature will make you feel loved needed, something value greatly.




Your exact opposite is The Lord's Heart.




Avoid Explicits when possible. They're open and frank nature is contrary to yours. You may also want to avoid Independents unless they have other qualities you seek to balance them out, as you are a person who craves closeness with another person.

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A manifesto, From the greatest man to have ever lived.   
12:59am 10/10/2008
 
mood: enthralled
Hello, my name is Dr. Phineas Waldolf Steel and I'm crazy. At least that's what they tell me. It's a real load off of my mind too. I mean you can get away with pretty much anything if you're bonkers. It really relieves a lot of pressure and responsibility for me.

What I've noticed about being insane is the fact that most people really don't want to acknowledge insanity. You can walk down the street talking to yourself (or little dancing bears that no one else sees) and people violently avoid eye contact. "Keep walking, don't look at the crazy guy. Act like you don't see him." You become invisible because people just don't want to deal with what they don't understand. Life is too busy to try and stop someone from having a conversation with a fire hydrant. And being crazy isn't illegal. You won't even be placed into an insane asylum unless you try to hurt yourself or others (note: that also includes trying to burn down your ex-employers toy company).

There are a lot of things I like about being crazy, but one of my favorites things has to be the fact that I don't have to be anything that the world expects me to be. If I feel like crawling around on the floor and barking during a business meeting, so be it. I'm nuts. If I feel like spouting off conspiracy theories involving the Alien Illuminati or that I will one day become World Emperor, then that's just to be expected. After all, I'm complete wacko. and it's rather convenient.

With all that's happening in the world today I would like to take this opportunity to speak about a very important issue. Toys.

What image pops into your head when you hear the word "toy"? A plastic Strawberry Shortcake doll? A robot that transforms into a vehicle? Perhaps peculiar devices in the bedroom? In any case, all of those answers are correct. For in the New Dr. Steel™ World Dictionary, the definition shall read as follows:

toy n. an object that makes you happy.

By this new definition we learn that a toy can be anything from a root beer flavored gumball to a new Mercedes. Clothes, vacations, movies, music, pet monkeys.they all fall into the toy category. Not only are toys fun but in this day and age they seem to be becoming increasingly necessary.

As children all we really wanted to do was play. and then school got in the way. The first thirteen years of school is a "have to". We might rather be thinking about dinosaurs or unicorns, but we're told to concentrate on math and English. It's a daily exercise of memorization and regurgitation of seemingly inapplicable information. The only part of school many of us actually looked forward to was recess, which they conveniently removed once we started middle school.

High school is quite possibly the worst designed and most inappropriate activity in the history of the world, as it places you in exactly the wrong environment at exactly the wrong time in your life.

Then, it's off to college where very few of us even know what the hell we want to do. So, we take standard classes to earn a standard diploma so that we might fall into a standard career that we're not particularly interested in pursuing in the first place.

We're doing this because we feel that we have to. Society simply assumes that this is what you must do, though we would much rather be having fun.

After all, that's all that there really is

See, there’s something I have to tell you and it’s not going to be pleasant.

I’m not exactly sure how to break it to you, so I’m just going to come right out and say it.

The meaning of life is…well, grim. To us humans with brains that have to justify everything, it’s grim. There is no big, important meaning. No higher purpose. All of this business about progress and advancement of the human race? It’s all just pounding the nails into our own coffins. If you wish to talk of purpose, the only real purpose humanity has is to reproduce. And, uh…news flash; We don’t need to make any more humans. 6,476,684,982 people is more than enough.

But our brains can’t stand not having “the answer”. There must be a reason. So we form religions and clubs, we join the military and gangs and we have Tupperware parties. We plug ourselves into little pre-packaged microcosms with nice, tidy little rulebooks to tell us what to do.

Obtaining validation of our existence simply because there’s a bunch of other people agreeing and doing the same thing as we are. Meanwhile taking our insecure frustrations out on other groups with whom we don’t agree (and vise versa).

This satisfies our brains to some extent, but it’s not the answer. Many of us begin to lose faith, drop out, change sides or trade in our Tupperware. Something doesn’t fit.

It doesn’t fit because there’s nothing to fit into.

As a species, we're totally disposable. Have you ever considered the fact that the human race is the only species on the planet that could simply disappear off the face of the Earth and it wouldn't effect the eco-system? Actually, that's not entirely true.our extinction would actually benefit the eco-system.

We're also the only life form that's completely incapable of surviving in the world on its own. As H.L. Menkin pointed out:

"Alone of all the animals, terrestrial, celestial or marine, man is unfit by nature to go abroad in the world he inhabits. He must clothe himself, protect himself, swathe himself, armor himself. He is eternally in the position of a turtle born without a shell, a dog without hair, a fish without fins. Lacking his heavy and cumbersome trapping, he is defenseless even against flies. As God made him he hasn't even a tail to switch them off."

How can this possibly be? How can we be the only extraneous life form on this planet? Why? Because we're not supposed to be here.

We're the result of genetic manipulations from an outside force.

Skip all that business about evolution, humanity was cooked up in an alien easy bake oven a long time ago. That's why we don't work correctly. There's nothing 'natural' about us.

We're mutant lab rats, unaware of the experiment we're in. We press the button, eat the cheese and continually run the maze not realizing there's a whole other world to be experienced. A rat doesn't want to run a maze, it wants to do "rat stuff". Groups of animal lovers continually fight to end this sort of experimentation on animals, but as Ted Kosinski wrote, "No one stops to ask whether it is humane to force adolescents to spend the bulk of their time studying subjects most of them hate."

The Alien Illuminati doesn't care about human rights. As far as they're concerned, we don't have any. They made us.

They're just waiting for the next ice age to hit. They'll eject in their escape pods along with two dozen supermodels and go live on the moon until things blow over. This has been going on for a very long time, yet we don't catch on because we're brainwashed, blinded and running on empty.

Their Reality Engineers guide our perspective of the world through corporate media, mass produced genetically engineered food keeps us operating on empty and experimental drugs, being introduced into society through various means, keep our brain patterns at a minimum. It's no wonder that we're a tired, unhappy, unhealthy lot who's daily highlight amounts to playing video games and watching television.

But now is the time to wake up.

If we, as a species, could only accept the fact that we're completely disposable, we could begin spending our time doing what we really want to be doing. Having a good time.

Quantum physics delves into the idea that our reality is whatever we perceive it to be. Meaning that it's only because we are observing this constructed reality that it continues to exist. So, enter the Alien Illuminati controlled mass media which tells us exactly what they want us to think. They create our reality by suggestion and reinforce it by opinion. Their goal is to keep us afraid and occupied with a million things so that we don't figure out what's going on.

Because if we did, we wouldn't stand for it. They know this and thus provide "the solution". Our bribe is receiving a constant, shotgun blast of mass media advertising from every street corner, billboard, bus stop, radio and website.

Our bored minds are primed to soak up a generous helping of this pseudo-entertainment casserole. Stale and rotting with the same, recycled ingredients, we swallow it with not much of a choice.

But we do have a defense. It's the thing that we only use 5 percent of. It's called our brains.

By default, human beings have a collective consciousness. Most of us don't know that we use it, but we do. We're all connected on some level. This is fact. Not just some hippie-land fantasy talk. Experiments have proven time and time again that we are indeed linked to one another through some sort of psychic netting. The problem is that we're not encouraged to exercise this ability and furthermore, the Alien Illuminati has placed a frequency network over the entire planet as to keep our dimensional blinders on. We are multi-dimensional beings living in a confining three dimensions.

If we were to experience all that we have the ability to experience, then they would cease to be in control. It's the Frankenstein monster theory. They created us and now they're afraid that we may destroy them.

So, how do we deal with this information? Well, most of us will completely ignore it. What I suggest is that we begin constructing our own reality. If our reality is what we're convinced it is, then let's make it a whole lot more fun and leave this filthy world behind. Let us band together with one, singular vision of creating a world based on the simple ideology of making fun the top priority.

Join me in my quest to build a better world. It is only as a collective with a singular, focused vision that we will be able to reject the ugliness of this realty and transform the world into a Utopian Playland.
 
     
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Can't sleep   
05:50am 03/09/2008
 
mood: thoughtful
So yeah. I've been up all night, a lot of things going through my head and stuff, a lot of things happening for one night. For one, I'm moving, into a house with some good friends, who unfortunately are a couple. I'm hoping they don't drive me insane with their cuteness. They're not all bad though, cause they want to find someone for me so I can be happy too.

Which brings me to my next thought. I feel that I am truly, honestly -ready- for someone in my life this time. I want this person to be so special, and I want to spend the rest of my life with them. Yes, I want this girl to marry me. Who, and where she is, is another story entirely.

Nikki...Kim... Kiernan... whatever the %$# her name is now contacted me last night. That was really... odd. To say the least. It was nice to know that somehow, she still cares. My real regret in this life is I was too young/stupid to not fully appreciate the love that she had for me. Heh, and it was only after she was gone that I truly realized how much that girl meant to me.

She's gonna read this and kill me now, oh well.


I made my mistakes, and I've learned a lot from being alone all these years now, I feel like I know myself a lot better than ever. And I'm ready, whoever, wherever you are.

I want to be loved, and loved in return.
 
     
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12:33am 03/09/2008
 
mood: confused
Holy crap. Where the fuck did you come from?
 
     
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04:01am 02/09/2008
 

Your result for The Ultra Ultimate Personality Test...

The Thinker


INTP


Private, intellectual, impersonal, analytical and reflective, the INTP appears to value ideas, principles and abstract thinking above all else. This logical type seeks to understand and explain the universe--not to control it! Higher education often holds a particular appeal to this type who tends to acquire degrees and amass knowledge over the entire course of life. Abstract or theoretical subjects are usually the INTP's cup of tea, and academic or research careers may seem attractive to this type. From science and math to economics and philosophy: just name the discipline, and you'll find INTPs perched on the loftiest rungs of theory and analysis. In whatever field they choose, INTPs take on the role of visionary, scientist or architect, and they usually prefer to make their contributions in relative solitude. The mundane details of life may be the INTP's undoing, since this type lives in a world guided by intuitive thinking. Often perceived to be arrogant and aloof, the quiet and sometimes reclusive INTP may have to struggle in the personal realm, as well, for feelings are not this type's natural forte.


Relationships

INTPs live rich worlds inside their minds, which are full of imagination and excitement. Consequently, they sometimes find the external world pales in comparison. This may result in a lack of motivation to form and maintain relationships. INTPs are not likely to have a very large circle of significant relationships in their lives. They're much more likely to have a few very close relationships, which they hold in great esteem and with great affection. Since the INTP's primary focus and attention is turned inwards, aimed towards seeking clarity from abstract ideas, they are not naturally tuned into others' emotional feelings and needs. They tend to be difficult to get to know well, and hold back parts of themselves until the other person has proven themselves "worthy" of hearing the INTP's thoughts. Holding Knowledge and Brain Power above all else in importance, the INTP will choose to be around people who they consider to be intelligent. Once the INTP has committed themself to a relationship, they tend to be very faithful and loyal, and form affectionate attachments which are pure and straight-forward. The INTP has no interest or understanding of game-playing with regards to relationships. However, if something happens which the INTP considers irreconciliable, they will leave the relationship and not look back.


Strengths

They feel love and affection for those close to them which is almost childlike in its purity

Generally laid-back and easy-going, willing to defer to their mates

Approach things which interest them very enthusiastically

Richly imaginative and creative

Do not feel personally threatened by conflict or criticism

Usually are not demanding, with simple daily needs

Take The Ultra Ultimate Personality Test at HelloQuizzy

 
     
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No one reads this anymore, so no one will do it...   
02:57am 02/09/2008
  But, just in case.


01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
A.

02) What was your dream growing up?
A.

03) What talent do you wish you had?
A.

04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
A.

05) Favorite vegetable?
A.

06) What was the last book you read?
A.

07) What zodiac sign are you?
A.

08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
A.

09) Worst Habit?
A.

10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
A.

11) What is your favorite sport?
A.

12) Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude?
A.

13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
A.

14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
A.

15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
A.

16) Do you have any pets?
A.

17) What if i showed up at your house unexpectedly?
A.

18) What was your first impression of me? (hmmm...careful!)
A.

19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
A.

20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
A.

21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
A.

22) What color eyes do you have?
A.

23) Ever been arrested?
A.

24) Bottle or can soda?
A.

25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
A.

27) What's your favorite place to hang at?
A.

28) Do you believe in ghosts?
A.

29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
A.

30) Do you swear a lot?
A.

31) Biggest pet peeve?
A.

32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
A.

33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
A.

35) Do you believe in God?
A.

36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
A.
 
     
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I'm famous!   
10:44pm 04/08/2008
  Watch as my pistol disintegrates in my hand. My favorite part is "the toss" and helpless look that follows.

 
     
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One of the many that got taken today   
10:48pm 03/08/2008
 



I had a lot of fun, even if it was only for a day. A million people stopped me for pictures, which was cool. A Seras Victoria fell in love with me, it was too cute. Shoulda got a picture with her, oh well.
 
     
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12:16am 02/08/2008
 


Old picture.



Newer pic.
 
     
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Look ouuuuttt!   
03:13am 23/06/2008
  I'm a sand ninja, woaaaahhhh!

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Also, this.


My Personality
Neuroticism
100
Extraversion
18
Openness to Experience
49
Agreeableness
19
Conscientiousness
3
You are sensitive about what others think of you. Your concern about rejection and ridicule cause you to feel shy and uncomfortable around others. You are easily embarrassed and often feel ashamed. Your fears that others will criticize or make fun of you are exaggerated and unrealistic, but your awkwardness and discomfort may make these fears a self-fulfilling prophecy, however you tend to lack energy and have difficult initiating activities. People generally perceive you as distant and reserved, and you do not usually reach out to others. You prefer familiar routines and for things to stay the same. You can tend to feel uncomfortable with change. You find helping other people genuinely rewarding and are generally willing to assist those who are in need. You find that doing things for others is a form of self-fulfillment rather than self-sacrifice, however you believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. You are guarded in new relationships and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth about yourself. You find yourself procrastinating and show poor follow-through on tasks. Often you fail to complete tasks - even tasks that you want very much to complete.

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10:04am 18/01/2008
 



What type of Fae are you?
 
     
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On jobs...   
10:54pm 14/01/2008
 
mood: happy
I see no point why a manager at one store should work as just a regular associate at another store, do you?


Nah, didn't think so. I am now an SGA(Senior Game Advisor or Keyholding Manager to the layman) At Gamestop. Toys R Us not treating me too well (Keeping me to near midnight then wanting me to come in at 5:30 am next day, having me do all the shit jobs that are hard for me, etc.) So I basically didn't show up for work today. I don't need it.


Anyway, yay, promotion.
 
     
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09:57pm 03/01/2008
 
mood: depressed
Where are all the nice, single girls?
 
     
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